New Day

I have found weird ways to deal with my anxiety lately.
When someone started giving me a weird feeling or making me mad I made a weird little song.
Someone would make me mad and I would quietly sing, "I see rainbows in your eyes."
Just because this song would make me laugh and think of something better than all the negative I want to think of.
I also noticed I cannot deal with change without feeling anxious.
The change makes my mind go a million miles per hour.
It is scary.
I have learned that when there is a change that I need to think of why this change is good.
I keep thinking of positive things to make this change better than the original plan.
This plan is not yet full proof.
I still silently go crazy.
My mind is still thinking way more than it should.
But everyday I keep trying.
I keep trying to find some solution to my silent problem.
I do not want my anxiety to control me anymore.
I want to live as if this is not a part of me.