The End

Today I nearly lost a source of my happiness.
I nearly lost someone I never expected to lose.
It felt like there was literally pain in my heart through it all.
There were tears.
Now I am left feeling numb.
Now I am left feeling empty.
I do not even desire to feel happy.
I just want to run from life.
I want to go somewhere else.
I want to know that my happiness is out there somewhere.
I want to know that happiness does not have to come with hurt.
I do not want to be so close to the edge.
I want to wander on the inside.
My anxiety is not eating at me this time.
My over active mind is the one in control this time.
Today I almost feel like not trying anymore.